December is always busy, and this year was no exception, except I was
juggling a heavier work load and some mental health issues on top of it all. But
you know what, I survived, cause sometimes you just need to amp up your super
woman quantities!!! This is not to say, I didn't have dark moments, because I
did. Oh boy, there were days I would have rather stayed in bed to sleep or cry
all day, cause the mean reds will do that to you. But I had to get up and get
moving, because I had no alternative. Sure I came home and usually fell into a
heap but I got by and am starting to feel like me again. I am by no means back
to normal (whatever the hell that is), but I am close. And for that I am
grateful.
Each time I 'fall over', and this time I fell further than I have in a
long, long time, possibly ever, I wonder if it's the last hit, and will I have
the strength to pull myself back up again, but bizarrely I seem to. This, of
course, is with the supreme support of key people; family and friends and you
know who you are. You listen, and are kind and sweet, and honest and to the
point when I need it. I know how lucky I am, cause without these beautiful
people I know I wouldn't have half the strength I have. This time of the year
has always been a struggle for me, cause as a single person navigating the
festive period can be difficult, add a birthday in there too (I was 44 on Boxing
Day...yep, I am really, really old!), and it really can be traumatic. And the
way I was feeling this year, I admit I was worried...and I think others were
too...
But I am pleased to report I had the best Christmas and Birthday that I
have had in a long time. Possibly as I had no expectations and thought I would
cry the whole way through it, lol! And not a tear was shed, to be honest I doubt
I have any left in me. And with each day I gain more and more of myself back.
It's not easy, but I am determined to have a good start to 2015, because I
really fucking deserve it!!! And as always I share this stuff because I believe
in being real and maybe just maybe I can help someone. And you know what, I
already have. My musings on SM, my ups and downs these past few months have
helped some people. I know cause they told me. We are all the same people, deep
down anyway. Be kind and careful with your your actions and words and you might
find that kindness coming back to you. Of course, I will be musing about this
and more in my 2014 wrap up and my 2015 hopes...stay tuned for them very
soon.
I could write about politics, sieges, death, the ABC, and news in general,
but I think we all feel the same. Enough and here's to good news in 2015.
So events, and fun were heightened in December, I guess that's the truth
for most of us.
The lovely J cooked me dinner and it was divine, because it's just me and I
am not the best cook, I always adore someone cooking for me.
The first weekend in Dec was huge, it was like I packed all my festivities
into it! C and I collected my new dining table. After 18 months of looking I
finally found something suitable! it came in 5 flat packs to put together, but
with the help from my parents, mostly my Dad (who was champing at the bit!) it
was put together with no trouble and looks amazing.
C and I then did a final Olive Tree run for the year, it's always a great excuse to chat, and laugh, and have Gozleme!
That night our wonderful Bibliotweeps Book Group had our Christmas party as the superb Una Volta followed by some seedy drinking at Coal and Ceder - both two new faves you must go to if not already.
The following day I met A and B for a sublime afternoon of High Tea and
conversation at The Novotel. Afterwards I got to see J's new digs, then we had a
night of fun, driving in a storm, dinner at our fave Saigon Feast, hot chocs at
Coco Mondo, and a movie at The Towers, Men, Women and Children - it was very
good, in particular Adam Sandler and the two main kids. Wonderful themes of
technology and space and trouble and growing up.
Just to keep things rolling I had Monday off, and A and I met for brunch at
III Bean, and then headed into ABC Studios for our dear friend, Carol, and her
last show. It was bittersweet afternoon for everyone there, most especially
Carol. Yes, I may have physically pushed people out of the way when I thought
JPY was in the studio, but you know, my feelings were all over the place! Not a
dry eye in the place when Carol signed off for the final time. Our love and
appreciation is still with you Carol.
That night we met at our usual family dinner haunt, The Royale Inn, to celebrate Dad's birthday.
The following weekend was our Twitter Christmas bash at my
favourite building in Newcastle, The Great Northern Hotel, and their 80s night.
We danced all night and had a blast, great tunes and I won a bottle of bubbly
for knowing Groove is in the heart is not an 80s song (d'uh). Funniest moment of
the night (and there were many) was a group of younger gals yelling at the DJ to
turn the music up when Blister in the Sun does that low part. 'We're not old you
know' they yelled. No fucking kidding you idiots, it's meant to be like that. Oh
the hilarity!
Work was very busy as I was till working on a major project and it was
complex and time consuming, but I also had time for fun. Events, local kids
decorating the library, and our final film of the year, Muriel's Wedding. And a
team get together at Verde Luna to celebrate being freaking amazing at what we
do!! Proud of my team, they are superb.
A, L, & I helped J christen her beautiful new place with a Christmas
celebration of fun, love, and friends...and charades...best leave that alone.
(My mind sometimes is not fit for company!).
We also moved the big family get together from Christmas Eve to the Sunday
before Christmas and hit Speers Point Park. What a great move and hopefully a
new tradition.
I caught up with V, N, & C for our Christmas get together, drinks, then
a meal at Heng Leong, our new fave Chinese in the old Wallsend Library.
Just as I was doing well, I fell over very badly the Monday before
Christmas, but my good friend C rescued me and made me go into Merewether Baths
for a cleansing night swim. And it worked, I cannot speak highly enough of a
night swim or my beautiful friend C!!
I spent Christmas Eve at my sister's property, eating seafood, drinking cocktails, and enjoying the serenity, in the belly on my family. Who has time for the sads?
I spent Christmas Eve at my sister's property, eating seafood, drinking cocktails, and enjoying the serenity, in the belly on my family. Who has time for the sads?
Christmas day was a full day of family, friends, food, laughter, excitement, napping, and presents.
My birthday was an overwhelming display of love from all the important
people in my life. C and I took my nephew to see The Hobbit. Big movie releases
are a birthday tradition. We loved the movie, sure there were added bits and it
was a little too long, but you know it's the end of an era. Cate Blanchett was
outstanding. Then family dinner with my predictable fare of Pork Belly followed
by cheesecake. You gotta have your faves on your birthday.
Since then I have been relaxing, feeling great, and just enjoying my little
break from work.
M took me out for a belated birthday dinner, I had another birthday morning tea with S, caught up with L in the park, enjoyed the sunshine out and about in Newcastle, and headed off to Wangi for a little spirituality, massage, and soul cleansing...as you do!
I feel ready to head out to an event for NYE, my first NYE out and about in
many years. I usually stay at home by myself, feast on seafood, watch movies and
think about the NY. I am headed to a lovely event at The Landing with J and L, I
will be drinking (I am usually the driver) and I will be dressed up....so look
out!!!!!
Tomorrow I will work on my thoughts about 2014 (that will be interesting,
it's been a crazy mixed up year...good and bad!) and my hopes for 2015.
In the meantime.... Happy New Year!!!
And as always, a few extra photos: